Attempting To Live Without Medication
Last year after I realized I had ADHD I was saved from myself by Medication. I do not deny it for a second. It helps me in so many ways to handle the world around me. To be able to sit at my desk for longer than 10 minutes without the urge to get up and walk around is in itself a miracle.
But I’ve noticed that as I’ve been on it longer I’ve also started to develop ticks. Nothing noticeable like my head rolling or my arm moving incontrollably but little things. I’ve also noticed that as I have lost weight, almost 50 pounds since last year I need less of the medicine. In fact the prescribed dose has almost a negative effect and the ticks become extremely pronounced.
Now I’m trying to live without the medicine and that’s a change. One of the changes is that I smoke less without the medicine. I sleep more too. That’s a good thing. I’m trying to create structure to exist without it. Meaning find ways to manage my time and tasks so that I’m free of the need.
One of the ways I’m doing that is by setting up a schedule that sends me reminders via google calendar
to my phone. Creating the routine that will enable me to fulfill what I’ve got going on. Talking to my wife about it so she’s aware of my time and making sure I’m aware of her time.
One thing I’m worried about is my sensitivity to the noise around me. As the medication leaves my system will I be able to handle it as well? What about my drinking? Will I start to drink more? Will I start to substitute dealing with a problem by eating more? Will I be prone to my rage more? Things that the medication clearly helped me with but now could come up again.
If there are those out there that have dealt with this problem in the past, please chime in.
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